As a rule, though, I am not normally a competitive person. Never a sports player - always picked LAST in school for gym teams, etc. My only successful 'sport' is music trivia!
And honestly - I don't take rejection well. I think that joining, entering, taking part has been a challenge to MYSELF to try NOT to be so sensitive about LOSING. BECAUSE:
If I've got one ounce of confidence about anything - it's that I
that my beadwork kicks major butt. I am in the 'advanced' category that some beaders only dream about. My love, my passion, my
for doing bead embroidery is a part of my soul.
I MUST BEAD.
The detailed, intricate work I do is a cathartic, meditative thing.
Unfortunately, it's also what makes it an expensive, ART related thing that most people unfamiliar with art and beading, are unwilling to PAY good money for.
I can't just slap a garage sale or flea market price on what I do. In my area, however - that's pretty much what people are looking for.
So in order to feed my need - I continue to create the big elaborate pieces for contests. And then afterward, I usually show them off during show season, maybe take a piece or two to the gallery - where they ARE appreciated and sometimes purchased - and then they go on display here in my home - and sometimes on my body.
THIS particular piece was just rejected by this year's Fire Mountain's Seed Bead contest jury.
"Color Me Happy"
I know that there are other contests out there that I can enter. I haven't decided yet whether to try any more next year. This year's show circuit - which officially starts in just 8 DAYS - will be a big part of my decision about my beads period.
I will probably always have that 'need to bead' - but whether I continue to do it on a large, get out there in front of the people scale - or do it
JUST FOR ME
remains to be seen.